I totally feel for you Stuck, and every other faded/ex JW who feels pain when they are shunned by former friends and family members.
I genuinely believe that very many JW's are mentally ill-at-ease, not only with the cult lifestyle in general, but especially so with the oppressive changes enforced in recent years. As such, when a "fellow worker at the grindstone" unshackles the harness and abandons the pointless drudgery & strife and walks away, those still shackled experience seriously conflicting emotions - the inculcated hatred, but also envy of the one escaping.
The vast majority of blinded, non-thinking JW's deserve a chance to see. Those in the cult who are fully aware, deserve the plagues which are coming their way.